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I begin to smile but falter
This is how I always fall
Falling short, falling away
Falling in love
And I remember
I've been here before
And I remember how
Viciously the agony cut
Me into shapes that
Allow me to fit
Into the lives of others
I begin to frown
But bare my teeth
Don a glaring sneer instead
No, I won't do this
Feel sorry for myself
For what's been dealt
For what's been lost
And I fortify
Cut the tape before
Another hits rewind
To begin falling up
And bare my bliss
To lips deserving my kiss
I begin to fade away
Taken with the ichor of mistrust
But I am swept aside
For a moment protected from self
Was it shelter I sought
Or a blameless host?
And I stand alone
Before the approaching night
Hours blocking my path
A serious slight of insight
Through a mocking crone
Mingling wrath with silhouettes unknown
Might as well delve
Into the shade that forgives
When I forget how smile
When I forget how to live
Dying light of my sun
Bring me back from the edge
Teach me a new trick
So I might survive
Teach me how to square
These bowed shoulders
And brush away these
Memories made boulders