An Echo of FailureAn Echo of FailureAngela MalzowI didn't want to leave the shower todayIt was like a thousand warm handsComing together to form a comforting embraceAn embrace I neededAnd no longer feel I deserveI am selfish.I want to wake up on timeInstead of in the futureWhere the alarm tells me I'm always lateA festering paper cut on my soulIs this moment in my lifeWhere tearing myself asunderIs the only solutionApart from where I've beenFor so longWe've lost common groundAnd all I can say is 'I'm sorry'I tried.My space is a constant disquietWith you aroundI wanted nothing more than your smileNothing more than youFor so longBitterness has clogged my throatI am no longer contentWith avoiding the multitude of truthsA stagnant aura pierces through usCarries away our sentimentsAnd leaves us with nothing but rotI'm dead.I am so bad at expressing my emotions to youNow days, that you've written me offAs hollow without even realizingThat the endless well of my soulIs on fi
I Fake It So WellI Fake It So WellAngela MalzowThe things I hate about meAre all the things that people can't see.'Oh!' They say, 'What pretty eyes!'Don't they know I'm empty inside?'Grow your hair! It was so lovely long!'Living up to everyone's standards just feels wrong.'We only judge you by what's on the outsideWe don't care what you hide.''So long as you live up to our codesSo long as it's the photogenic side you show.'Don't take me wrong, the compliments make me smileReassures me that I hide well what within has been defiled.'Look! Again, your freckles are cute!'Does it matter that my heart is destitute?Nod and laugh at my hilarious jokesForget about my rotting yolk.If I get a little skinnier do you think I'd be beautiful then?How about the way I suck in my abdomen?How about we fuck until my hips shatter.Maybe that will stop this pesky chatterClicking about inside my brainTelling me to accept your chains.On and on, your voices carry the heatOf your vanity and acrid deceit.
The Greedy OneThe Greedy OneAngela MalzowI've ripped and torn you up.Don't you see the damage I inflict?Where eternal devotion should be swimmingIs nothing more than a severe deficit.What I owe you, what is due?I won't let you take it, it belongs to me,And I refuse to give it away.Don't make me burn you with my third degree.Keep asking me what it meansAnd I'll still have no answers to give.Torture yourself wonderingHow you'll live.So you'll never let me go?You cling to me until you suck me away.Already I'm hollowing outHow long will you make me pay?DOA from our hearts to our souls.Lift me, drop me, shatter me to bits.Kick through my mountain of ashes.Toss about your insults, call me heartless.Stop searching my eyes, they're empty.The abysmal result of what we've done.Telling one another how we could be,But you know I'm not the one.Still, you won't admit it.You've sliced me pretty deep.Those hooks in my chestMake me lose sleep.I don't have the strengthTo keep telling yo
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